Standing Still and Everywhere to Go

I have so much on my mind right now. I am just going to do a bulletin post.

• There is so much death and sickness going on around me it is overwhelming;especially since it is mostly children.
• Little John has been sick with the sinus yuckies and we just finished antibiotics.
• We've had to put our Disney trip on hold since I am sick.
• I had to put my surgery on hold as well as a deep dental cleaning, a tooth extraction and a crown. So my mouth hurts all the time and I pee on myself every time I laugh, sneeze or cough............just keeping it real! Yes, the bladder has come back out of the temporary position the ob/gyn placed it in. I have to go back for another attempt "to place it" until I can have the TVT-O /Solyx procedure (when the staph infection is deemed out of my body).
• I finally go back to the dreaded infectious disease doctor in 10 days! I will have taken 6 weeks liking one day of the 8 week prescribed antibiotics, at that appointment.
• I am tired of being sick but glad i am feeling some better and my energy is slowly reappearing even though I still overdo it. I still take a nap almost daily.
• The boys have been staying in trouble at school and it is taking a toll of my Mommy skills.
• We got out federal tax refund after only 9 days! Praise the Lord!
• My Mom has went off a little and decided to start raising Labradoodles. Lord help us all. She got a female (solid black) a couple of weeks ago, named her Molly Lou. The dog is only 10 weeks old and already weighs 12 pounds! Oh and did I mention it is a house dog for time being?! This (my Mom) is the same woman that would not allow relatives to leave their mobile homes and come to her house in bad weather because they would bring their dogs to her house. Anyhow....I just find that interesting!
• The boys wanted to play t-ball but know little about it. We have decided that they are not mature enough to play at 4 years old and need to wait. We are taking a LOT of slack about it from friends. It really doesn't matter their opinions though. We have thought it through and with my brother and Daddy's advice have said not now. First of all it is very sad when the kids don't know what they are doing and run the wrong way or score for the other team and the parents/fans laugh. That bugs me! That makes kids self conscience as well as humiliated! Also, I have seen little kids get hurt badly because they were watching the bird in the sky and not the ball. One child got hit last year and got a concussion. So, we are going to work with the boys this year and maybe next year we will let them play if we feel they are ready! Registration is $85 per child. That does not include uniforms. Also, bats, helmets and gloves are your responsibility to buy. That is a lot of money for us times two.
• This is the last weekend for deer season to be open and my heart hurts so badly for my Daddy. He loves to hunt and has gotten to very little because of the Trigeminal Neuralgia. I hope he gets to go in the morning some.
• We are already starting to work in the orchards; pruning trees.
• Beautiful weather today (high 50's) and tomorrow and pleasant for a week or so. Then we are suppose to get a massive snowstorm for here. They are talking schools being out for sometime (a week or more). The school year in already going into June to make up for the last storm that shut everything down.
• I am teaching "coupon classes" on a regular basis now; mostly at churches. It is going well and I am learning even more about saving money myself. I thank God everyday for this blessing of being able to teach others how to save money! I am not charging for the classes. I believe the Lord blessed us the way he did when the babies were born as well as financially and he gave me this talent to give to others. I do not want paid for doing right.
• I have an uncle that has been in and out of the hospital. He lost his wife almost a year ago and has been having it so bad since. This week he has had a stint put in and the angioplasty done on his heart. He also is fighting c. diff. He is still in the hospital after a week already. please be in prayer for him.
• I have a cousin in her 40's that spent from August until Thanksgiving in the hospital (she had a liver transplant). She went home the day before Thanksgiving, the first time. She has had to return twice since. She is still in there. She is finally off the ventilator and has a trachea. She has lost down to 80 or 90 pounds and has a feeding tube. She has one infection left and the doctors think they have it under control. She is having to have major rehab services. Please be in prayer for her. She has an 11 year old daughter that needs her Mommy.

I guess that clears my mind a little. My heart just seems heavy today. I am going to find my blessings though! Right now as a matter of fact! Have a blessed day!

A Heavy Heart

As I write this the sadness seems to flow and yes I know we are not suppose to worry. It does no good to worry about things you cannot change but I am hurting for so many this morning. I am going to this in a bulletin type post.

• Last night we got the call that my nephew, who is 24 left his wife and their 2 children and has been gone for about 10 days. The whole family is just broken. The rumor is that he is cheating, he says she is cheating........It doesn't matter who is what. The children are my worry, they are 6 and 3.
• My cousin T and her hubby a neurosurgeon decided they wanted a baby late in life. Never had any children and at 41, she delivered a little boy 4 weeks early and he is very sick. His lungs mainly and he has jaundice. He has been in the NICU over a week.
• I have another cousin that she and her hubby and kids bought a multi million dollar business 4 years ago and moved a couple hours away to run it. Chances are if you live in Alabama, you have stopped there. Anyhow, on her way home from work Monday afternoon a little 10 year old girl was riding her bike on a county highway and swerved to miss a dog. My cousin was driving her SUV and could not avoid her. The little girl swerved right in front of her. She was killed on impact. My cousin worked on her, as she is a nurse but nothing could be done. My cousin is so broken and is having a very hard time.
• I have a very dear friend who is a reader here. She has 2 little boys. She found a place in her neck. She will have a biopsy next week. She has a family history of cancer. I love you sweet friend!
• Last but certainly not least........my Mom is very sick. She has a regular lung specialist. She saw him just a few weeks ago on a Tuesday. On Saturday night he committed suicide. She saw one of his associates this week only to find out that she has full blown COPD. IF she does not do what he has instructed she has 6-12 months to live. She is is known NOT to do as the doctor ordered and unfortunately I cannot make her. She says she will try and quit smoking. This is the same exact road that we went down with my mother-in-law. She lost her short battle with lung cancer a little over a year ago. The chances of Mom getting cancer are very high, unless God sees her another road.
• Hubby only worked two days last week and one day this week. He has looked for other work, but there are no short haul driving jobs and very few long hauls available. With all of the rain there is little farm work to do right now. He is so down and out. We are trying to make it until the first week in June (when the markets start) but it is difficult with all of the medical bills and pharmacy too. He is getting irritable and depressed.

My heart is hurting today. I ask for your prayers for all of the above. Thank you and may God continue his blessings for us all!

Another Bulletin Post

• There is not much to report.......
• I have been doing Mason's breathing treatments and taking his respirations, forever. :)
• His treatments were reduced to 3 times a day yesterday, not enough for him, the coughing is signficantly worse.
• I take him to the doctor in the morning, at least we can sit on the well side and we are the first appointment! Yay!
• My aunt and uncle that I cook for sometimes are having it rough. Their only living child (39 years old and divorced-due to her hubby's cheating) had to have emergency surgery Saturday night and is very ill. Pray for her, her name is Pam. My aunt and uncle have her children and my aunt has cancer and my uncle is not well due to lung problems. I cooked a meal and took yesterday.
• I have meant to get a "garden post" up, but keep forgetting to take my camera to the garden when I go.
• It looks so lush and green! We have already staked tomatoes and tied them twice! They are starting to bloom!
• We have baby brocolli shoots too!
• I will be able to pick yellow squash by the end of next week, maybe sooner! Yay!
• John's work is still slow and we are back to living paycheck to paycheck. We have some savings and are trying NOT to touch it. With Mason's illness and all we finished cleaning our emergency fund out.
• Last week's paycheck was barely $200. Thankfully he made a little extra money working on the farm.
• I am exhausted, but mainly because I am checking Mason's vitals twice a night.
• His respirations are still a little high, over 40.
• He is sleeping more and I have to wake him from naps and from night sleep.
• Little John is being a character due to the fact that Mason is sick and he (John) is getting less attention than normal.
• The weather is yucky here today, we will eat breakfast and I will get the boys dressed and head over to my parents before the bad stuff hits. Already 80 mph winds, tornado reports and flash flooding in the state.

I guess that is about all. I haven't felt the writing bug like I usually do and just haven't written. I will post sometime tomorrow when we find something out from the doctor. Hope all is well and you have a dry and safe day! Blessings!!!

Bulletin Post

Here are some updates.....in a quick, bulletin format.

• I am sick, as are Little John and Mason
• 2 of the 3 of us are on antibiotics, the other later today.
• It is sinus infections, lots of fever, hurting ears, sore throats, snot, sneezing and coughing.
• Hubby still is not working much.
• Planting season is here. Put out a few THOUSAND plants put out yesterday.
• Plowing, Pulling beds and laying plastic today.
• All of the plums were killed
• Peaches are all fine
• Still accessing the pears, early apples, figs, blackberries, blueberries, ect. Should know about all later this week.
• Will start hand fertilizing the peaches today.......A HUGE job in itself.
• The recipe for philly cheese steak casserole some of you requested will be up this week......some time.
• We will have company from North Carolina this weekend, thankfully they are staying with my Mom and my aunt.
• I am hoping to feel better tomorrow, as I am suppose to be doing most of the cooking.

Hope all is well with yours today and thank you for the prayers. We were well covered and that is so appreciated! God is so good and we are all still praising HIM!!!

Blessings!