Sunday, January 2, 2011

Wish I Were Feeling Fine

Some of you have been in contact via email, facebook and comments on this blog wanting to know how I am doing. I thought I would just make a post of it.

There is so much pressure in my eyes and below as well as my nose. It is very uncomfortable to say the least. I have some swelling; mainly my hands and face. I have a "yellow" tint to me. The fatigue is bad. I am just so tired and weak. The energy is little. I am not use to this. I am use to going, going, going! LOL

I am still thinking about the phone conversation with the doctor (ENT). He called while I was driving to "town" to get groceries at Wal-Mart with the twins in tow. I found a place to pull of the road as he told me the results and the car was so quiet (I had put a dvd in the player for the boys) and I was thinking I am not that sick, I am headed to Wal-Mart for crying out loud! The more the doctor said the more scared I became; "port, pic line, infectious disease specialist, iv antibiotics, hospitalization, infusions, months for the body to rid itself of this infection". This isn't happening. This can't be happening! Don't they know I have 4 year old twins and both of my parents are sick and I have too much/too many people to take care of?!!

I am home from church today and I think that it has sunk in. I am scared but I am not alone. I have my heavenly Father watching over me, walking with me. I am blessed, I do not have a terminal illness. My illness can be healed; in many ways. God is good and I will praise Him in the storm and will see the sun again soon, I am sure of it.



whitlow5 said...

Hey Marva,

Catching up on some blogs for the first time in awhile. So sorry to hear you're sick! I'll be praying that God will help you and your family through this difficult time.


Julie said...

As we begin this new week, continue to lean on Jesus! He knows exactly how you feel and what you are going through.

Dear God, I pray for Marva right now. I pray your healing hand will completely heal Marva of this horrible infection quickly. Guide the doctors in their choices for treatment. Or better yet, perform a Miracle on my Dear Friend and shock the pants off of the doctors!

Nikki said...

I will continue praying for you!

Mimi said...

Marva, You will begin to feel better soon, it does take awhile for medication to kick in. My doctor likes to sat "you have to get worse to get better."
We are praying for you!
Stay strong, and find comfort in the Lord. He will see you through this.