Sunday, February 7, 2010

I Am Only Human Part 2

Mrs. Darling over at Dishpan Dribble wrote a post after I had written my post (and she had commented here)below and I just wanted to clarify things a bit. I am uncertain if it had anything to do with me or not. However, just to clarify............

I love my life and I am certainly not depressed. Sometimes I just like to get my feelings out of paper when I am feeling overwhelmed (which I was when I wrote the below post). I still feel overcome by all of the things I speak of (which is why we are purging through our home). We have clothes that we haven't worn in years, too many coats and shoes that I have recently outgrown (my feet are growing at age 33!). The boys have toys that they have outgrown and we have acquired too many possessions from loved ones that have passed on. And so on so forth.

I juggle a lot and I mean a lot. Things are let go when I cannot manage them and having twins is trying at times. (I am not the one that moans and groans when my children are hungry). I love to make sure my children eat and eat properly-coming from near death experiences in the NICU-more than once and Little John still underweight......I love to see them eat! :)

I am not the type to sit on my laptop for hours or to watch tv all day. I read for 15-30 minutes a couple of times a day. I take my vitamins, I take iron (for anemia), I drink plenty of water and so on so forth. I need to exercise. John and I talk after we go to bed, that is our time.

I do want to crawl out of bed of a morning. Sometimes it would be nice to sleep in since I am lacking in that area (due to children waking in the night) but I do like to be busy and get my day going. Speaking of that I try to arise each morning before the others and do my devotion and spend time with him. I use the Proverbs 31 site online. I do not spend enough time in His word though.

I hope this clarifies things a bit. I think most women feel this way from time to time but I am a happy, positive person for the most part. God is good and he provides. I love my life and am happy to serve where he takes me.

Oh and Nikki, unfortunately I do not have a basement or an attic. I wish we did.



Mimi said...

You are doing just fine, you stay busy, and there are only so many hours in a day. I think that you are doing fine. As a mom of twins, I understand how you feel. You are doing a great job! As for clutter, it can really be a problem. I got rid of tons of stuff and we haven't missed a thing.

Mrs. Darling said...

Marva that post was not about you. Like you said, you are not the one that doesnt like it when your children are asking for food. That came from a real life friend. My posts are never all about one blogger or one friend. I compile experiences from life in general. I have a lot of women come to me for mentoring and my posts are based on what I am hearing just as much or more, than what I am reading.

And for the record I didnt even read your post I must admit. I saw you needed encouragement by a brief scan and I quickly entered a comment to let you know I cared. I have to admit I do that a lot in blog world because of lack of time on my part.
So now i guess myabe I should go read it. LOL And yes, you are right, we do all have our down days. Thats why women need each other so badly. No one understands like another woman.

smilernpb said...

You shouldn't feel bad, or need to justify things Marva.

Everyone has very busy lives, at the moment I find that I am struggling for 'me' time. Bronte is just six months old, but very demanding at the moment, however I would not change my life or the path it has taken for anything!

I know that as she gets bigger each day, she will become a little less dependent upon having me there right next to her all of the time, as so I grab a few minutes here and there to do what I can.

I sometimes feel that I don't actually do anything, not working at the moment, you know? But then I remember all of the little things I do at home, and hope that all of these things get noticed, and appreciated by my family.

Look after yourself, sweet friend! Lots of hugs xo

Nikki said...

I did not think that you were complaining at all. I just figured that you were feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment and needed to vent. I know that you love your life.

I'm sorry for your lack of a basement and attice; our old house didn't have either, and it was a pain in the neck!

homeschooling6 said...

I know what you mean. I'm a happy homeschoolling mama of 6 and life gets busy. We get purging and cleaning, but it has nothing to do with being depressed or complaining about my wonderful life.

I think it's great when blogging moms post about the good, the bad and the ugly. IMHO it helps us all feel normal. I post some of my down days, so people will know that I too go through them.

Keep up the good work!

Anonymous said...

NOT having a basement or attic can be a seems the more room you have the more things you hold on to..

Nonsensicalgirl said...

I think most normal people have days when they feel overwhelmed. And trust me when I say if I had all of the things going on that it sounds like you do (among other things you've faced in the past few months) I'd be just like you and worse! :-)
Actually, I was thinking about you asking the question of how do 'you' do it all and all I could come up with is...I don't! And to be honest, I've learned to be okay with that. Don't get me wrong, there are definitely times when I get frustrated over not being able to accomplish what I'd like to for different reasons but I've come to realize that things are actually better when I just stop trying to do it all and let that not be a big deal. Maybe the Lord let's us get a little overwhelmed sometimes just to remind us we need to take a break from some things?
As for no storage space, I can totally sympathize with you there since our old house had none. We've talked since moving here that I don't know what we did without an attic! We definitely had to keep 'stuff' to a minimum while living there though so I understand you getting rid of things.
I hope things start 'looking up' for you soon and get a little easier in some ways...even if it's just throwing something in the garbage! :-)


Heather said...

We all feel overwhelmed as mothers, I think no matter what stage your children are in. :0
Love ya, heather